"Who will tell whether one happy moment of love or the joy of breathing or walking on a bright morning and smelling the fresh air,

is not worth all the suffering and effort which life implies?" ~Erich Fromm
 

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Sunday, May 6, 2007 11:46pm

Something that I've come to realize over the last few years is that nothing turns out as you expected. Sometimes things are better, sometimes things are worse, and other times things are just different. No matter how hard you try and how long you prepare, nothing turns out exactly the way that you thought they would. Maybe it's because we can't truly expect everything that could happen because the possibilities are numerous, but there is nothing in life that goes just how we plan.

Now I sit here looking at my future, if just as far as the end of the summer, and I'm making plans wondering how they will turn out. Even knowing that I can't predict precisely what will happen, I still make plans for my future. Why?

I think that we live off of plans for our futures. I think that it gives us hope, if only a little, for tomorrow. Not only that, but I think that it gives our lives direction and maybe even a purpose if simply for tomorrow. Whether we are right or wrong in our predictions is not as important as actually looking forward.

Saturday, May 5, 2007 12:58am

Who am I? What am I doing? Where am I going?

Lately I've been asking myself these questions. I'm reaching the end of my college career with just one more year to go and I have no idea where my life is heading. Three years ago, when I started college, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. I had my whole life planned out and I was ready to start my journey, knowing where I was heading and how I was going to get there.

Most people, when they get in their car, they know where they are going and how they are going to get there. You get up in the morning and you need to go to work so you get in the car and drive the most direct route to get there. Usually. But life's not like that. You really make no decision to start on your journey, you are just born into it. You have no idea where you are going or how you are going to get there. Often, the route is not the most direct, the quickest, or the easiest. That's life.

But then there are the days when I get into the car just because I want to drive, it doesn't matter where. Often, I make up excuses just so I can drive around, to no where in particular for no specific reason. So why then am I so concerned about where my life is going? I just need to get on board with life and see where it takes me. I need to worry less about where I am going and enjoy more of how am I getting there. As Steven Tyler says, "Life's a journey, not a destination."